I started my December 24, 2010 by having a general cleaning of my room. I just decided that it's about time to clean the clutter. Very messy room equaled a very busy days. So there it goes, put out things, vacuumed all over my room, then returned back everything. Actually I'm not yet really done. Time's up! I already need to prepare myself for the thanksgiving service at our church at 5pm. So I prepared myself and go to church with family, then at church we took a little pictures then after, I thought that we'll go home but instead we need to go to the house of our senior pastor, because they put up a simple salo-salo. After eating, my church friends and I had a mini pictorial in a room. :D Just for fun, because the elders were still chit-chatting downstairs while waiting for them. Then, at last they decided to go home and fix things then go straight to Bulacan to spend the Noche Buena with my lolo, lola, tita and pinsan and pamangkin. I decided to bring my puppy with us because i feel sad thinking that it's Christmas and he's home alone, in short my puppy is with us going to Bulacan. Puppy's weakness is travelling that's why he feels dizzy and vomited three times. I pitty my puppy, I didn't remove my hands to him until we arrive. Gosh!
So here's the reason: Upon arriving when my dad knew that puppy vomited in the car seat he became very angry to me. He was telling me, that sana I did not brought puppy with us. He was sooo angry to me that he insisted that i must quickly clean it up with soap and water. He even throw the soft cover to me. I am asking my self why is he very much angry? It is Christmas and he is angry like hell? Then, I became furious, very angry also because he need not do that, throwing the dirty seat cover. My tears started to fall I was very iyakin talaga when I'm angry. So I got up quickly, get soap, water and a clothe. I go to the car and buti na lang there is my tita and lolo to help me, big help talaga kasi instead of me cleaning they insisted that I'll leave it to them to clean but i was ashamed so I stayed there and still tried to help. Still crying. After cleaning, went inside the house and got all my things put it in the room where I always stay when we're in Bulacan. I make up my mind to sleep na lang instead of be with them na napipilitan and i'm not already in the mood. So I prepared myself to sleep. Still, can't help but cry. While lying in bed, cry. Cry. Cry. Cry. While reflecting to my self and talking to God. What a very sad time to spend the Christmas eve. :c I tried to sleep. Even though my lola saw me and told me to eat. I refused. I can't celebrate while everyone is happy and I'm the only one who's very sad.
December 25, 2010, in the morning, still, my heart is heavy I was expecting a word from my dad but there's none. Looked at the mirror and my eyes.. oh so magaaa! Grabe! It's my eye thing to be like that when I cried before going to sleep.
I'm insisting myself that it has a reason why things turned out like that. I know God is telling me something.
Even though, I still thanked God for this Christmas, because of people who remembers to greet me. I love you all people! You know who you are. :D